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Post by Zach Partridge Levi Lestrange on Oct 1, 2014 23:56:41 GMT -5
To: @micah
Believe it or not, yes, I am writing to you. I do not know really who else to turn to for this and I very well know better than to ask Father for any help. Alexandru is out of the question as Tara and Val. So your the last one I have who I can even ask for anything. You may choose not to aid me, I will not hold it against you.
As for what I a writing to you about, I wish to inquire about your travels to other places. What are their culture like? How is their culture different to ours? Are there any difference in their society with ours? And if so, how different are they from us?
I remember father trying to meddle in your personal life, I wish he'd stick to Alexandru and the girls, Tara ost especially. Its already obvious that Alexandru would be the next Head of House so the future of the family falls into his shoulder rights?
Micah... I wish to ask how the difference between enjoying someone's company and wanting them to be by your side forever. I do not understand this but I wish to know.
Cordially Yours,
Zach L.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 3, 2014 21:44:28 GMT -5
Younger Brother,
This was an unforeseen surprise for me, receiving an owl from you, I mean. I thought I was the most hated of your siblings. Was I mistaken? Or is it because I am the most hated that I am the only one you can turn to? You don't very much care what I think of your life or how you live it and you know that I won't tell anything to mother or father. Smart of you. Yet you ended up in Slytherin.
Are you asking about a specific country? I've been to many places, Zach, and all are different. Even places here in our home country are different. London isn't at all like Glasgow. What place are you wanting information about specifically? I don't need to know why, but I have assumptions that it has to do with someone you have an interest in.
Alexandru will proudly take on the title of next Head of House for the family. But if he dies, it falls to me. If I die, it falls to you. Maybe that's why father gives us a hard time as well. I'm glad you're of the same mind as me when it comes to wanting his meddling to end. I refuse to be the obedient son who blindly follows the wishes of his father like so many others in our class. When you need to leave home, you've got a place with me, if you want it.
Enjoying another persons company is friendship. Sharing jokes with each other, stories of the day, past events, creating memories and whatnot; that's all apart of friendship. As well as caring, I suppose, if it's deep enough. Wanting someone to be around you all the time is drifting into love territory. It's a feeling like your world isn't complete unless that person is in it, sort of like you're lacking something that you need to survive. Don't quote me on that, because I'm not some expert on relationships. Are you seeking love advice from me? Don't slack up on your work because of some passing fancy. Hope you are well,
M. Lestrange
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Post by Zach Partridge Levi Lestrange on Oct 5, 2014 21:53:12 GMT -5
Micah,
Just so you know, I do not hate you. I just do not like the fact that you can live your life the way you pleased and I have been trying to break away from our family which isn't working much. And yes, I do not care what you think of how I live my life. You have never meddled in my decision making so I appreciate that. I will do the same since you have done it to me.
The country isn't important really. Its more of the societies you have seen for yourself I wish to hear about. How different are they from ours here? Do they believe the same things we do? Do they banned the same things we do too? And if you want, you can ask. Don't assume.
Alexandru won't die. It would be troublesome because if that happened, you would be next and that would be troublesome on my part since your a quidditch player. Your profession is dangerous and if something happened to you, my life plans will surely crumble since I would be expected to be Head of our house. I wish not for that to happen to be honest. And I agree that it isn't so wise to blindly follow father since his concern is only about the family line, even sacrificing us just for that. And as for your offer... thank you. When the time comes, I shall take you up on that.
Micah... You know Felix right? My best friend since forever? I do not understand why I cannot stand the fact that when he speaks of his father marrying off to some hapless woman, I feel angry. I do not wish for him to do so. It would not make him happy. I wish him to be by my side and I know he wishes for it too but he says that he needs to continue his family line. I do not understand this. Can we not be by each other's side and yet do our duties to our families too?
My studies are fine as well as my quidditch practices. We've been trained to the ground my Captain Gaunt. I swear sometimes he thinks that were immortal since he doesn't seem to gasp the fact that some of the chasers were starting to fear him and his training from Hell. I am well... so far. I hope you are too.
Zach L.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 4, 2014 10:15:03 GMT -5
Zachary,
Forgive me for my late response.
Though I'm pleased to hear you don't harbor hate for me in your heart, I wish you would not see it as me living life the way I choose. I've hurt our parents, both of them. I'm not a good son, nor a good brother to you or our sisters. Choosing the path I've taken, being like me, will only leave you with guilt and regret. I will support you, rest assured, but I fear for the pain you will face the same as I did once you make the decision to leave home without the blessing of our parents.
The societies in other lands are more lenient than ours. Look to the French and you will find many a young Lady already without her maidenhood and unwed. Nothing is ever precisely the same in other nations. Do not expect it to be. So why do you ask of this? For whom did you write a letter to me, of all your siblings? I am curious, of what sort of person would prompt you to write me, asking such questions as you are.
God willing Alexandru does not die, but lives to a ripe, old age. But if it should happen, I will retire from my Quidditch career and spare you another sibling death. You would then be free to live as you wish, while I'd play the role of the good son. Hard to imagine, is it not? And don't be too harsh on Father. He's a stiff man, for sure, but no parent does not love his children. I believe he acts not to preserve our family's integrity, but to protect our own. Or at least that is what I am trying to believe.
You don't want your longtime friend to end up in a loveless marriage. That's normal. If you care enough for your friends, you'll want them to live happy lives. But Felix is his own person, Zach. He is not meant to spend his life by your side. One day he will marry and become a father. At that time, he will have responsibilities to his family, as will you. Enjoy your youth at the moment, but do not think that you can forever exist side by side, throwing away the possibility of a warm home. That would be too selfish of you towards Felix.
Gaunt, that little inbred pureblood extremist is captain? What was your Head of House thinking? I wish you luck, little brother, in your trainings and studies. I've seen the article, by the way, about the recent happenings at the school. Are you fearing well after that? Murder at Hogwarts, I'm sure mother's in a tizzy. Awaiting your response,
M. Lestrange
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Post by Zach Partridge Levi Lestrange on Nov 7, 2014 1:57:58 GMT -5
Micah,
You make it sound like you regret the way your life has taken its turn. Yes, I understand that you had not been the best son or brother to the family. But even I know that as long as you think that the decisions you made were the best for you, then you have not done anything wrong... even if it hurt a few people along the way.
I ask simply because I wish to no longer remain here. This place... its like a tomb to me, Micah. It will kill me eventually. How our society walks backwards while the rest of the world moves forward. And as for whom... i am writing for myself. I am no longer sure of myself even if I appear to know everything I need to. Micah, I am troubled as many I know change around me and I find myself in between. I care for someone and I wish not to let that person go but at the same time I cannot act upon them in fear of what will happen to that person. For the first time in my life, I am scared of being alone Micah. I have always been alone until this person and now I might lose the only person who had cared for me.
What is freedom anyway? Can one truly be free? No matter where we go, something will always ALWAYS tie us down. It is us who will choose if it becomes a good thing or the exact opposite. And as for Father, I wish not to speak of him. I do not understand him so I will refrain from saying things that will cause myself to brand him of something he may not be.
I know, Micah. I know I cannot stop Felix for the duties he will need to bear for his family. I just wish there was another way where he will be able to accomplish it and not have to compromise for the sake of duty. I want him happy and even if its not by my side, I will make it happen.
Yes, he is the Captain and this is his last year. As for what Professor Borgin was thinking? I have no answer to that. He is the best student of his year in Slytherin... maybe that is why. As for the murder, I do not know. I think I am alright yet I cannot bring myself to accept that something happened within this castle walls that have been said to protect us all. I only hope that it happens not again for I fear that the next death might either be of my own or someone I know.
Keep Safe Always,
Zach.
P.S.
Enjoying my youth is something I only wish I can do, Micah. For I fear many more things will happen here.
P.P.S.
Warm home? I do not even know what home is.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 27, 2014 20:57:36 GMT -5
Zachary,
That is not what I meant. You have misunderstood. I do not regret the choices I've have made for myself over the years, though I do feel regret towards those who may have been harmed because of those choices. Whatever decision we make in life, someone always ends up being the one hurting. To live knowing that is burdensome, but it's much better to keep it with you than ignore it as if it never was there at all. Otherwise, a darkness will slowly fill you whole. Do you understand what I am saying?
Calm your thoughts, little brother. You sound depressed. Have you forgotten that we live in the world's largest Empire on earth? Our society is one of the most advanced today. Even if you go to another place, you will face the social constraints of that particular nation. Don't be so hasty to leave the place of your origin simply because you've deemed it a miserable place to be at a young age. Our nation is not the same as it was ten years ago and ten years from now, it will again be different. Do not carry such little hope in your heart.
Who are you to try and control the life of Felix Burke, Zachary? Do you believe yourself his protector? You're wishes are useless. Forget this idea of protecting his happiness. You cannot devote your life to his, just as he cannot devote his to you. One day, he will tire of your company, and then what? What will you do then? There is nothing more solid in this world than family - a connection of blood. Friendship is a passing folly.
I suppose one can't fault him on that account, then. Didn't know the inbreeding allowed room for one to have the ability to be top of their year. I wouldn't worry too much about what happened, not since the Ministry has taken action now. They're doing quite a thorough job, even questioning Quidditch players. Are you returning home for the holidays? Hoping you are well,
M. Lestrange
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Post by Zach Partridge Levi Lestrange on Dec 29, 2014 0:30:23 GMT -5
Micah,
Why must decision making hurt someone else other than ourselves? Just because we chose somethingt hat another does not think highly upon, it hurts them. Why? Just like how it was when you left home. Father had locked himself in his study for most of the time. Mother kept cleaning your chambers herself. Alexandru, Tara, and Val were themselves: putting up fronts that they were alright when it was clear as day that they weren't. And yes, I understand what you are saying... I cannot say however, why I do so. I just do.
The prejudice of our society is what alarms me the most really. I will not specify on which it is but in general, it alarms me that while we are the largest empire, we still have views that show we haven't really moved along the times. Yes, we are different from ten years ago but still... I have faith, just not the same as most people do when it comes to our society. They are nearly like sheep, believing everything as long as they are whispered from ear to ear.
I am not trying to control Felix! I just want what is best for him since he doesn't seem to think that he deserves the best. He shrugs everything off and just accepts what he gets because he thinks that he isn't worthy to have better options. I just want him to see that he deserves better than what he thinks. And our friendship has been tested, just so you know, Micah. And it will withstand more and more tests life throws at us.
I can't speak ill of the Captain though I do hope that he would lighten up a bit. Training sessions with him are like survival test Aurors take every week. We enter and fight our way through his trials, hoping for the best to survival another week. And no, I will be remaining in the castle this year. Felix is staying and I have yet to write home about staying. However, I am sure it will be fine. One less child to bother Father and all.
I am well as can be and hoping you are too,
Zach
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Post by Deleted on Jan 21, 2015 20:58:00 GMT -5
Zachary,
You should spend time with Father over the summer. Try not to be unkind to him. He needs at least one son who doesn't cause him grief. And tell mother her food is fantastic, even when it's burnt. She's starting baking again. You know how that ended last time. Sorry for the short reply, but I've been rather busy with training and I haven't the time to collect my thoughts in a long, drawn-out letter after fifteen hours on the pitch. Hope you survive the rest of the year,
M. Lestrange
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Post by Zach Partridge Levi Lestrange on Jan 21, 2015 23:01:17 GMT -5
Micah,
I already have plans for the summer. And unless father himself requests that I spend it with him, I will go ahead with my own plans. You know very well that he and I don't see eye to eye all the time and the last time I tried to 'spend time' with him, we ended up walking away from each other and I felt more angrier than ever before.
Mother is baking, I know. She sent me a batch of her oatmeal cookies three days ago and I had to be rushed to the Infirmary by Felix after each one. It was... painful. Don't try eating it if she sends you a box of anything.
And as for your practices, I deduced as much since you had not replied in a while. I do not mind. I already answered a few questions by myself and I am planning my own future just in case. But I will tell you and you alone... I will not marry anyone who I do not want to. If I have to, I will leave and Father will never see me again if he forces me to.
Keep your head on you shoulders always,
Zach
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Post by Deleted on Feb 10, 2015 22:48:08 GMT -5
Zachary,
You sound bitter. While reading your letter, I imagined you had a frown on your face. You probably did. I know that our father is a tender subject for you and I'm not saying you have to suddenly pretend the two of you have the best relationship of all father and son relationships. I'm only asking that you attempt to be calm and patient with him when you again see the man. For whatever faults he has made, he is still our father.
What are these plans for the summer? Have they been approved by mother and father? I thought of inviting you along with the team when we go to Bulgaria for a week, but I guess you'll be too busy for that. This is why you were not sorted into Ravenclaw house. Even knowing how awful she is at baking, you still ate what she sent. Does that make sense when you actually think back on it now? Use that brain of yours sometimes.
Did you? Maybe you are using your brain then, once in a while. Be cautious about planning the future at your age. You've many years ahead of you that will bring about change. Marry? Aren't you too young to be considering marriage? Alexandru is nearly thirty and still unwed. I do not think marriage will be something Mother or Father will pressure you with. Try to be a little less pessimistic, brother,
M. Lestrange
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